I’ve a short story being published in the next issue of Irish literary journal Banshee. It was so much fun to write. I realised after I’d finished it, that I’d been thinking about the French movie Fidelio, l'odyssée d'Alice for about ten years. Also, when that doctor/actor Anders Danielsen Lie had his big year there a while ago I was very ‘I know him! I’ve seen him treated like a rag before!’ Trailer below. Long live the messy bitches.
I’m about two or three years late to Sorrow and Bliss, a novel by Meg Mason, but I’m glad to be late. I had seen people reading the book during the end of the restrictions and all that, but I hadn’t noted anything other than it being a ‘mental health’ story and I guess I was on a ‘is this set in space???’ buzz back then.
I had a small disaster of a weekend afternoon there, where I was wondering what my life’s purpose was following an encounter with a sewn-up someone else. I was asking the great blankness had I squandered various chances and let time eat me up? I was gone a little mad, it all hidden behind big sunglasses and make-up.
Waiting for a bus after the encounter, I popped into a charity shop for a quick glance at the books. I don’t bother looking at the clothes in charity shops anymore. According to the bus sign, I had about ten minutes until the number I wanted would arrive. I saw one very recent release I’d been planning to read and the aforementioned Sorrow and Bliss. Might as well see what all the fuss was about, I thought as I picked up both, paid, threw them in my tote, and got on the bus. Then I got off at the wrong stop and it was pouring rain - the type where you can’t see where you are - and I was wearing sandals and I’d overcommitted to various things and I just felt like getting into pyjamas and closing my eyes. I did some math. I walked up and across the road to the stop back to town. Texted an apology to the person I was cancelling on at the last minute and felt terrible. I’m not usually like this. I live by the diary. But something had to give. I had to admit defeat. I couldn’t stop the clock or the rain. I had to retreat to get back on track.
The bus back to town was slow. And I still couldn’t see where I was. So I started Sorrow and Bliss and immediately saw what all the fuss had been about. In the novel, a woman named Martha recounts the various scenes which have made up her life and the relationships with her husband, who has just left, and her immediate and extended family. I don’t want to say any more on the plot. I’ve been reading it in bed, at bars, on buses. I’ve been neglecting my work, my must-dos, myself. I can’t wait to reread it. It is breaking my heart.
P.S.
Nicola Peltz Beckham, a billionaire’s daughter, made a movie about abject poverty. It’s as bad as you think via The Guardian.
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I really liked Fallout on Prime. Ella Purnell and Walton are great.
Thanks for the 'Lola' rabbit-hole! x